i have an infant feeling
it’s small, it’s alive and it’s growing fast.
This feeling grabs for all, wants it all but can’t have any of it.
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I know you are protecting me from you. I know your burning heart is much too hot for my touch. I think to save me yet, you show me you’re cold. You don’t show me any warmth or hearth under it all. You allow me only a view of ice-cold stare and silence.
What else I know is this. There will not be an apple on this stem if you keep up Winter. There will not be any flower or fragrance on your pillow. There will not be a hand in the crowd, or an ear to listen and only the darkness will listen to your heartbeat.
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You felt six feet under without me. I feel six steps behind with you. I can’t figure out why the smell of damp earth clings to us and why I can’t catch up to you. Your eyes are fixed somewhere out there and infrequently do they see me. We both wanted what we’d lost in each other. While we’ve found our bodies the connection is still lost.
